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Today was hard.

Today was stressful, and unpleasant

in so many ways.

I spent alot of the day worried and frazzled.

And I'm pretty sure that's not how it's supposed to be.

"Let not your heart be troubled. . ." 

over and over again in my mind today.

Then, I heard about a young mom whose

husband suddenly passed away last night,

leaving her as the single mom of two small children.

And I found out that a young wife just a few years older

than me was going in for a biopsy today to

find out if she had cancer.

And I was ashamed.

Still am actually.

My worries are so small, and silly in the grand scheme of things.

It's not to say I don't have them, and I think it's not good to pretend

that life's all hunky dory all the time.

But Jesus is mine, and I am His.

And He says to me: ". . . let not your heart be troubled"

When will I learn to obey?